I will move on.

Well after reading a post I realized something.
What is my purpose of being with "her"?
Besides shes nice, this and that.
Whats my goal if I were to start a relation with "her"?
Shes a non Christian, will our goals differ?
This questions me.

Will this relation if started last through circumstances?
And the questions goes on.

This is a path that I'm unsure of.
Deep down, I can tell that I'm still not ready to take it.
Therefore I told myself, I will move forward not looking back but looking back for lessons I've learned and not repeat same mistakes.
4 years and I had enough waiting, I will move on with life.


God do help me to forget about "her" if she not in your plan to be placed with me.

New phone

Finally after so many years I got the chance to change my phone.
Well, change also not that expensive one but I'm glad and satisfied.
Well, its a package with maxis. So, as you know its sorta "free".
Well, 2 phones- Motorola W388 and Sony Ericsson T280i well, I chose T280i.
Seems to like it, and I'm more used to Sony.
So wallah, new phone.
Well, only phone change Hp no. still the same.

Officially entered Holiday

Well, today is the start of my school holiday. For this, part of me feel happy, but part of me feel sad.

Came think of it, time is so fast. Its just feels like half a year but its already November. Well, for me that is very fast but maybe not some of you.

So many has happened throughout the year, happy ones, sad ones, touching ones and many more.
Many things I've learn all will be my life time experience.

Well, another 1 month plus its going to be year 2009 which is the year for me and my many friends to take SPM like those that are taking it during this period.

Time passes to fast. If we don't treasure it, we'll miss many opportunity for many things.

Lastly I would like to wish everyone that are also having their school holidays or going to have their school holidays soon a Happy School Holidays.

Am I ok to let it go?

Loving someone without that someone noticing is makes oneself really suffers. Especially if that someone is always by your side but you just don't have the courage to tell that someone about your feeling towards them for the fear of losing even the last thing between both of you-friendship.

Honestly I don't even know if its love or what? I mean, four years!? How can oneself take four years... of suffering just for a single person that goes by you everyday but you just don't have the courage to tell the them what you feel and separating oneself from others that you meet. Its just like chopping down the whole forest just for the sake of "one" tree.

I can say I'm that person. Its been four years, yet I never let go of her in my mind. Every time I see her, I just can't let go of her but yet I have no courage to tell her anything, my mouth just kept shut. When other girls attract my attention from my eyes, my heart can just can't let go that one particular girl because she will always be in my heart. This heart has only one space for this part of life.
The experience and feeling with her never faded. How I wish she was with me right now and in future. How I wish she was in my life.

I don't know. Maybe in future yes and maybe not. From what I wrote, I don't know how to let go of her. How I wish I show her this post. But will not review her name for the sake of keeping the friendship with her. Its my only last thing between me and her and I don't want to lose it. If telling her my feelings towards her will cost me my friendship I'll rather keep it to myself forever even though I will have a scar in my heart in this portion of my life. But I'll always hope of one day where I'll have this chance to tell her everything but yet retaining the friendship even if she rejects me.


...God help me...
Only God can help me.

Please don't make wild guesses of who this person is... and post them on anywhere, even though if you are so certain.

The feeling of less stress

Exam is finally over. Don't want to know the results lol.
Well but I feel relaxing, less stress.

Well for those of my friends that just started exam- Good Luck.