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Saturday, November 8, 2008

Am I ok to let it go?

Loving someone without that someone noticing is makes oneself really suffers. Especially if that someone is always by your side but you just don't have the courage to tell that someone about your feeling towards them for the fear of losing even the last thing between both of you-friendship.

Honestly I don't even know if its love or what? I mean, four years!? How can oneself take four years... of suffering just for a single person that goes by you everyday but you just don't have the courage to tell the them what you feel and separating oneself from others that you meet. Its just like chopping down the whole forest just for the sake of "one" tree.

I can say I'm that person. Its been four years, yet I never let go of her in my mind. Every time I see her, I just can't let go of her but yet I have no courage to tell her anything, my mouth just kept shut. When other girls attract my attention from my eyes, my heart can just can't let go that one particular girl because she will always be in my heart. This heart has only one space for this part of life.
The experience and feeling with her never faded. How I wish she was with me right now and in future. How I wish she was in my life.

I don't know. Maybe in future yes and maybe not. From what I wrote, I don't know how to let go of her. How I wish I show her this post. But will not review her name for the sake of keeping the friendship with her. Its my only last thing between me and her and I don't want to lose it. If telling her my feelings towards her will cost me my friendship I'll rather keep it to myself forever even though I will have a scar in my heart in this portion of my life. But I'll always hope of one day where I'll have this chance to tell her everything but yet retaining the friendship even if she rejects me.


...God help me...
Only God can help me.

Please don't make wild guesses of who this person is... and post them on anywhere, even though if you are so certain.

1 comment:

Unknown said...

ermmm... desperado? Seems like this troubles you a lot eh? Remember that loving someone is not easy, and to maintain it isn't any easier either. Whatever choice you will make, I will support. But, think carefully, it's what I'll advice you. After all, you're not desperate to be in a relationship (oh well, that's what old people will say =P)

God will help you, just pray and ask him.

God bless =)