Somethings linger

There are somethings that stays there if we keep "feeding" it...
I guess it won't go off anytime sooner unless a miracle happens.
But I'm in doubt, not doubting whether miracle would happen or not but rather in doubt and confusion about am I really ok? Or the problems lies not only in me?
Though I'm not in the position to judge because all in all, I'm just a mere human.
So, all I can do is pray, where the problem lies in, that God will bring out a solution.
Sometimes the pain is unbearable, but its life, I'm just going to persevere through, I want to believe, but I pray that God would help me in my unbelieve.

Just changing title

Well, I've changed my blog address and name =) Hope everyone will update their blog links and get used to it.

Of calm waters and rapids, with a smile too =)

College has started for almost 4 weeks now. Most of the time, things seems ok.
I made friends, works are ok for now, rising busyness is still ok for me and the lecturers are rather friendly.
Despite the "calm waters" there are too some "rapids".
To mention a few would  be like, certain times of boringness, uncertainty, certain minor "pains", slowness in learning(especially Calculus), not having many "better known" friends yet(only a few, many know them by name but hardly talk to them) and sometimes the feeling of being ignored, left out and not noticed. Sometimes, I'm just feeling weak and frustrated thinking "how I'm going to go through everything?".

I guess all these are just the well basics of the beginning of college life...
Sometimes I just feel tired going through all these.
But I guess thats only human when we feel like that, when we're adapting, although some adapt better then others.

Another thing would be decision making, lots of decisions to go through, lots of decision to analyse...
Some of those "basic" decisions are not so basic anymore when you really go into deep thinking and analyzing about them...

Despite all, there are many things to that I want to thank God for.
Especially when I drive, thank God for his countless mercy and grace upon me not to forget his protection for the number of "close calls" I had.
I don't dare to imagine where would I be if he wasn't there to look after me.
Besides all these "close calls" do their part in making me a better and more experience driver =)
The "calm waters" above too are worth thanking God for.

While "rapids" are just there to better shape me...
Maybe through all these, many more changes will I see in my life.
At the end I guess these "rapids" are there just to make a man of me? lol
A way to prepare me for the even tougher challenges ahead =)

That concludes my activity for today.
God bless =)

Complextion made mobile

Alright updates, updates.
First of all, college has entered week 2, and I'm still deciding...
Oh, I really pray for an answer...
Arts, I take Finite maths, Science I'll have to take Calculus...
I'm wondering if I could cope with Calculus... and pursuit engineering...
If not, should I go for Arts and pursuit a simpler job? Business? Mass com?
Decisions, decisions are giving me a hard time...

Then, I finally got my laptop last week, and it just makes things simpler and more mobile.
Specification?
Acer Aspire 5745G
Intel i7-720QM
Nvidia GT330M GPU of 1GB memory
4GB ram
500GB HDD
15.6" 16:9 HD LCD
Windows 7 Home Premium 64-bit operating system

Well, basically these are the specs =)
Anyways these are the updates for now
God bless and have a great week
-Darrell