Christmas

Wishing everyone a Blessed Christmas and a Blessed 2010 too.

I really thank God that He sent his one and only son to die for us, without him, we won't be experiencing Christmas :)

So....

All I want to say is.... Happy Birthday Jesus !!

Nice to meet you and long time no see

This will be the final update for the APYAC about peoples and friends but it'll be a short one.

One thing fun about conference is that you get to meet new people ;)

Really happy to meet people from around the world of difference races, color and country ^^

I also really thank God for the opportunity to re-meet my friend from primary- Farm Wey Chern.

After 5 years cause shes living in PJ...

Was really glad to see her.

Well Farm, size does not matter and it fits you too =)

We did take a picture but it wasn't clear because I was using my phone...

Anyway here it is =)

Anyways thats all for the updates for Asia Pacific Youth Alive Conference

The next one is in 2012.

Do attend, and you will be challenge ;)

God bless =)

"Hello cakey".

Well, another post about APYAC.

This one will be about the speakers and their funniness ;)

This conference is not what you think of like any boring conference, its so lively that during certain speakers you just can't stop laughing on the jokes they make while still preaching God's word ^^

Then we have wonderful worship sessions.

All the speakers were wonderful too.

Of them, Pastor Mike Pilavachi ^^

He is indeed one of the funniest pastor I met.

I still remember "Don't turn that camera away from me" *walks up to camera man* "Don't do that again" and "Hello Cakey" xD

Then we have Rev Clement which is also another funny pastor.

Then Rev Victor Wong which taught us a really nice dance. One part of the song goes like "I will follow you, follow you to ever you may go"

And still many more speakers, check out my friend's blog which has more details about them- http://movetheslug.blogspot.com/

Besides the speakers, we have many wonderful groups from around the world that led us in our worship sessions.

Of them, Brad & Rebekah, a group from the US led us in many wonderful worships.

Their songs were awesome really gave a some great worship sessions =)

Then we have the Japanese youth group. Which led us in few Hillsong's songs in Japanese.

And one song "Amazing Grace" was sung in Japanese too ^^

Then we have Glad Tiding's own band, and others from Philippines, Indonesia, Africa and many more that were equally awesome in their own ways ^^

Overall, APYAC is just awesomely wonderful =)

2012 come faster, I want to attend APYAC again

Updates are till here for now, 1 more post tomorrow about peoples and friends

God bless

We speak to nations

Asia-Pacific Youth Alive Conference(APYAC) 2009 ended on Saturday 12th December and all I can say is that it was an awesome and amazing cenference.

God's was strongly felt, he was there.

I missing the experience already...

The theme of APYAC 2009 is "Speak to the nation"

Its about mission, purpose, identity.

Its truly an experience that cannot be forgotten.

It truly amazing.

1000+ youths from 29 nations, 29 nations from Asia-pacific, the continent of Africa, and the nations beyond came together in 1 place as one, one under Christ. Nations like Japan, nations like Korea, Vietnam, Myanmar, Cambodia, Indonesia, Philippines, Pakistan, India, Fiji, Bangladesh, and more so much more, USA, UK, Canada everyone laying aside their differences, their colors, their backgrounds coming together united as one big family under Christ, under the kingdom of God.

It just simply an awesome experience.

I tell you, God's presence there was so strong, you see lives change, hearts touched.

We had great speakers, speakers that are driven by God.

Speaking, challenging us in every aspect of our lives.

I have no regrets going for it even though for the tiredness of waking up 6.00am in the morning and sleeping 1am in the morning for 3 days.

What I've seen, what I've learned is more satisfying compared to 3 days of sleep.

Its a unforgettable experience.

Nothing satisfies me more then God's touch.

Revival is coming to Asia-pacific, prepare to be shaken

Because...

Asia-pacific belongs to Jesus =)

I'll be updating about APYAC again tomorrow.

God bless =)

OVER!!!

Today on the 8/12/2009 SPM IS FINALLY OVER for me xD

Chemistry was the sickening one but its over.

Spm seems so long but after thinking back its kinda fast to finish it.

Well, 4 months to come... do what ah? =D

Anyways all the best to those still taking other subjects :p

Thats all for the updates

God bless

Full colors of this world unseen...

Many do not but only those closest to me know that I cannot see many can see...

Everyone can see clearly while I am limited... colors... is what makes this world wonderful...

Without colors its going to be pure plain...

But for me... for me I can only see certain range and some others I can't see...

Its saddening that sometimes I can't see the beauty in things that people see.

But I ok with it... at least God still gave me the ability to see colors but not all.

Half color blindness, I got it since small, no wonder I can't see what people point to me in the jungle -- only after I knew why only then I realize.

I was confirm with half color blindness during standard 6, and unfortunately there is no cure or any way to fix it.

It quite a nuisance when you can't see all the colors especially in games or jungle.

Example, in the jungle I have a hard time to see things when everything is just green while some animals are brown, and thats when I can't see them...

Another in games... when I'm gaming, I have a hard time noticing the opposing players. I easily miss them and get shot -- Happen a lot in first person shooters... and real time strategy games I have a hard time controlling my units during micro cause I might mix up between their colors...

The only play I can still play is by experience and learning, time and duration spent.

Then theres these range of jobs that I cannot apply for due to color blindness, for 1, pilot...

I don't even know can I be a aerodynamic engineer with this condition...

Even for driving you need to pass the color blind test and I just wonder how am I going to pass it when I've seen the questions and am unable to see the shapes or numbers --

As you can see, color blindness and its effect but at least I still can see colors...

I can't imagine what would it be of those who can only see black and white.

Well its a random post about my condition

Anyways 3 more days in SPM ;)

Then its freedom xD

Thats all for the updates

God bless :)

Trying out

Just some random pictures :)

Desperation Band: Light Up The World album, bought today :p

The Holy Bible, I love this picture haha

Summarizing week 1

Week 1 of SPM is over.

This includes 3 days and 4 subjects :)

In short Bm, English, EST was ok ^^

Sejarah was the headache --

You should see how the exam hall empties in just 1 hours plus hahaha.

Anyways, 2 weeks plus more until SPM is OVER.

Mathematics, Moral, Bible Knowledge and Add Maths is next week.

Add maths --

Anyways thats for the updates this time.

God bless :)

SPM

SPM starts in like 9 hours.

So, All the best everyone :)

All The Best

Wishing every SPM and STPM candidates all the best in the upcoming examinations.

Don't give up, do your best :)

The "Boy's School Theory"

This year will be my last year in a boy's school, and a vast unknown world lies ahead, but whatever it is I'll leave it to God :)

Anyways, 5 years in a boy's school, I guess that gives me enough experience to compare, give some facts and talk a bit about boy's school.

Basically, boy's school, from the surface, you don't see much difference from co-ex school, except its just all boys.

But some people tend to put boys from boy's school are gay...

Some even have the tendency to put their mind when they heard "I'm from boy's school", the word "gay" would just appear --

I tell you its not like that...

I don't deny the fact there are "gay" problems, but this gay problems goes a long way.

Which I would try to explain by logical ideas and thinking.

From if you had to go through 5 years in one, you could really feel the difference.

I believe being in a boys school has it's pros and cons too.

One of the cons that you really see is that its really hard for some boys to get back into society where there is the other gender. It happens to some not all especially to those who are more "technologically advance" guys like me cause you really spend too much time on the computer. Through this 5 years after primary, you really would have to strive to relearn how to live with girls again literally saying. Its sometimes just hard. Too hard as it goes.

Take example: Me. I'm a very "techy" guy and I seldom go out with my friends for walks, and socializing. Therefore I lost touch with the "world" and when you realize it and try to get back on track its just so hard that you are overwhelmed by shame and inexperience because of lack of exposure.

You sometimes tend to lost your natural reaction like you once have in primary with girls...

Another cons is that you sometimes tend to feel "lonely" without a companion, partner, of more openly a girlfriend. This sometimes lead to greater problems, like looking for a "substitute" of the same gender...

This is where sometimes gay relationship starts.

I think its quite common where people have the tendency to ask when you say you're from a boy's school "you're from boy's school?" and give a big reaction asking "are you gay?" --

I tell you its not that simple actually...

I also want to tell you, most boys in boys school do have girlfriends and some really are having really successful results.

I also believe that boys from boy's school tend to appreciate a relationship more.

From cases I heard, its the girls who want to break up...

Another thing about boy's school its about the examination results.

Because there is not much competition, so then hardly anyone is striving to get good results.

This sometimes pisses the teachers off xD

Now, about the pros, I believe one of the greatest things of a boys school is the friendship.

In boys school, I say most of us has that "brotherly bondage".

Cause we're in the same school, all of the same gender.

If anyone had ever watch HBO's Band of Brothers series, its almost like that.

I believe one the the greatest and deepest friendship forged are sometimes found in situations like this.

I think sometimes it more like brotherhood then friendship.

You really have the friends.

I don't mean co-ex school don't have friendships like this, I just meant its more common in boy's school.

Sometimes there is also less conflicts because everyone are of the same gender, theres nothing to fight over, no one to impress and nothing to show off.

So, I guess these are basically the facts about boys from boy's school.

I think some would agree, some would not.

I apologize from any statement that might be insulting... I'm just typing what my heart's feeling.

But I hope for some after reading, will understand better about boy's school.

God bless :)

It flew

Time, does not wait.

Time, is not in our control.

Time, does change things over time.

Its October 23rd.

Only 27 days to SPM.

I'm going to give a shot at this.

I'm going to trust, I going to do my part.

I will not take things for granted, I shall not take this chance for granted.

Here am I on the edge of battle but I shall not tremble, but I will emerge victorious.

The countdown will not stop but it will go on and so shall I keep moving forward.

Nothing is too late.

Nothing is impossible.

I've got the proof and proof it I shall in this coming battle.

Everything is possible if we just have faith, trust and hope.

God bless every Form "5-er" in the coming SPM.

Nothing is too late, as long there is still time, there is still hope, for the lights have not fade, and fade it shall not even in the very days of the SPM.

Have no fear,

and do not wail.

If you would just hear,

you shall not fail.

Stop thinking,

and start studying.

Stop dreaming,

and start trying.

You thought it was over, but round 2 just began

Well, this is not to be mistaken with the previous post but this is round 2 in Yaki-Yaki.

Haha also went on Wednesday when we heard that the promotion was until 30th September.

This time there were 13 of us, and we got the "VVIP" room :p with no extra charges ^^

This is eat till even syiok ^^ because we have "experienced" chief this time that got experience from the previous round with all kinds of experiments :p

This time there were less "black" food hahaha

The tables are set

The "board" of "chefs"

having the discussion

This is how "we" do it

It glows :D

This however is what happens when the apprentices take over :D

This is called "flaming" the food o.o"

Salmon sushi :)

The varieties ^^

Ice cream? Yes but not of the ordinary its Baskin Robin ^^

Its mine :p Don't get tempted

The aftermath :p

So this is basically everything for the updates.

God bless.

Out of the house

Today? Went out with friends for food- Yaki-yaki, haha its a Japanese BBQ restaurant.

Well it seems theres a promotion on this week, so its Rm21 per person.

I heard the normal price is around rm30+ or 60+

Well, using phone cam so its quite blur.

Anyway this is how we cooked lol

All kinds :D

Its pork not squid mind you -.-"

From these

Still fresh :)

And, the result of extreme cooking from many "cooks"

Mind you, its not chocolate cakes

its the tokoyaki "burned" style :D

I love the smell of burned tokoyakies in the morning :p

Who lighted the chicken? O.o

Haha the fire is not from the stove but from the chicken itself haha, it got lighted from the burst of flames before that :D

Its not the light, its the exhaust

They have a pretty cool exhaust system lol

There are these exhaust all around the restaurant at every table.

I wonder in future maybe they can make food delivery to the tables from these hahaha.

Nice XO display ^^

These were at the bar table but... its not included in the rm21 package awww too bad lol

After 2 hours of food we went to TS walked around, then finally decided to watch movie.

Watched G-force HAHAHA, anyway its not bad.

Finally we went home around 1700hours.

The sun was scorching that time.

So these are the updates.

God bless :)

Not again.

I just don't get it... Why?

Why am I so forgetful?

I just don't know.

Task, important events, birthday..... I always forget even if its so important...

Birthday of close friends are one of the mains that I forget.

I'm really want to say sorry to all my close friends when I really forget your birthday and not give you even a single wish.

Some I wish late but then I still feel that pain.

I don't know how and why but then I just blame myself for forgetting all of your birthdays.

How I wish I can turn back time and wish your in the brink at 0000 hours on every friend's birth day.

It makes me feel not worthy of being a friend if I forget to wish someone close "Happy Birthday"

Maybe I'm just not worthy of being a good friend after all.

I don't blame anyone but myself.

Its gonna be there for quite sometime I guess.

Every time I fail to learn but how I pray this time I'll learn.

I don't want to take for granted every opportunity to wish "Happy Birthday" anymore.

I failed today once again, but let not me fail again in times to come.

1.56Am

I'm still awake :D

Anyways Hari Raya Holidays starts tomorrow.

This is what I've been waiting for...

End? Its just another beginning

Trials are coming to an end but... the final battle for Spm is next.

1 week holiday next week... gonna use this time and balance out between play and studies I hope.

Each day, spm draws near, but this I'm not afraid.

But then each day, the end draws near, this is what I'm troubled about sometimes.

The the prophecies of the book of Revelations coming true each day.

Anyways, today(12.01 am) is going to be the last day of the trials exam for most school.

EST paper 2 today.

Then its a slight relieve from the exam pressure I hope... or is more pressure coming my way...

Anyways these are the updates for now.

God bless :)

9/11

Today is the 9th of September 2009, 8 years after the destruction of US's World Trade Center.

Its really shocking to see something on the news that look just like your movies...

I still remember that moment, when I finished watching a movie in my uncle's house and then there was the very first news in Malaysia showing the footage of the 9/11 attack.

It was on the tv's special news that day where straight, straight after the movie there in was, just in time...

Something hard to believe at first glance cause it was just like those portrait in the movies.

But then what was happening was reality.

No one expected...

Lives of thousands...

To be lost in just 1 day.

Lets appreciate everyone around us in these end times for you never know when would be the last...

Exams Exams and Exams

Its the second week of the trials...

and... I seldom study for the exams...

Haiz what am I doing????

What is it?

Since I was small, I had a weird kind of experience.

The weird but not too weird kind.

Ok, I had this experience that goes like this:

There are certain points in life, in certain times, certain situation, certain position, certain words, certain view and so on are in perfect place, I would face something like a déjà vu, a situation that happened that I have like a snap of sense of very very very close familiarity of that moment.

It has happened to me many times, its so familiar that as thought I was in the same situation before...

I wonder does it happen to everyone? Or just me? -.-"

Its weird and has been happening to me since small.

Its a somewhat wtc experience.

Although its not often but it does happen.

Its a great experience but also weird... and it gives me lots of wondering thoughts.

Until sometime asking whether it is controllable?

Any comments from readers?

Watch this ^^

Listen to this

Malaysia turns 52 today

Its Malaysia's 52nd "Birthday"

Its the 52nd year of independents.

I'm proud to be a Malaysian, even with so many this and that, but then this is where I'm born in and I'm here for a purpose.

Thank God for the freedom in Malaysia, able to follow freely believe in the religion we want, and the freedom we have.

So Merdeka, Merdeka, Merdeka.... haha

Google Malaysia's logo for Malaysia 52nd Independent's day.

Pretty cool huh?

An end in the making

Well, few more days and the holidays will be all but over and then starts the SPM trials.

Once again, time, is passing in front of me like a speeding bullet train.

So, what I did for my holidays, till now, no, no study at all...

2 days spend at Berjaya Plaza. Ask me why am I staying in a hotel when I have a home in KL?

It free, so why waste it? Well its also more convenient to go shopping around KL.

Tuesday basically not much.

Wednesday went around KL with friends celebrating birthday.

Went to Neway in the noon and then went to Pavilion to watch District-9.

Its the 1st time I went to Neway.

Then went all the way to Pavilion to watch District-9 which is 18PL because security there are less tight. Well, manage to go through the gate without problem lol.

Summary of the show, boring at the beginning, better at the end. Some said its giving headaches.

Lots of, and I mean lots of use of f*** which is annoying and lots of humans getting blown to bits by alien weapons but no body parts were seen flying cause they were like you know... totally blown to bits of bits...

Anyways its not what I really expected.

Then, the main thing, I got my new phone ^^

Model- Sony Ericsson C510.

Bought for RM790.

I heard the price was around Rm600 from my friend...

But anyway, its already bought.

Satisfied with it till this very moment.

Pics maybe some other time.

Internet access is having a bit of problems...

Computer also... sometimes it lags till like a Pentium 3...

Anyways, there will be the current updates.

God bless :)

Holiday and quarantination

Holiday started for me 1 day earlier this time due to... quarantination. -.-"

Well, it happened when one of my friends was positive of H1n1 therefore due to close contact, I was quarantined.

However, I still went to church today ^^

1 week of holiday, I just hope I can really study and get some rest because after this is the SPM trials.

Anyways just want to update this short update today.

God bless.

Zoomable pictures of previous post

Just hope Google and TSB don't kill me :D

You didn't expect this don't you?

I just bought my own google web site, come support my hosting ^^

You could find special promotion like these original games:

2009 Asia Pacific Youth Alive Conference

Its here, APYAC 2009 is here in Malaysia this year on the December 10-12.

Its being held in Glad Tidings Petaling Jaya.

More info on:

http://www.youthalivemsia.org/wordpress/

http://www.apyac09.blogspot.com/

And heres a video

Its theres, but will you seek it?

Life, the most miraculous thing in life.

As we are living, I'm sure many have asked these questions:

"Why Am I here on earth?"

"What is my purpose?"

"I'm so useless, what can I do on earth?"

"Everyone rejects me, why am I made like that?"

"Is there any purpose in life?"

I believe many have commonly give a long and deep thought about this questions.

From a Christian's point of view, the answer is, we are made for a purpose, a simple answer. No one is "made" accidentally, everyone has a purpose and when I mean everyone, it means everyone- you, him, her, them and me, regardless of the background we came from, a wonderful family, a broken family, an orphanage home, even the streets.

There is no accident.

Yes, your family did not plan you, but God did.

You have abilities, skills, you are not useless, no one is.

If you can't see it, its just not obvious, you have to look deeper, you have to seek.

Nothing comes without an effort.

Even we Christians say "Do your part, and God will do His"

See its still needs effort, its not a life where we live as we sit back, enjoy and relax. No, we don't live a "happy-go-lucky" life.

So what more if you're seeking your purpose?

There is no one, absolutely no one without a purpose.

All you need is to find it.

It is written in the Bible:

For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. Matthew 7:8

So its all about seeking and finding.

I'm sure if you search deep down, you'll find that purpose.

Live you life to the fullest not half of it.

God bless.

Theres always a first time

I'm gonna blog about what experience in church today, something that happened to me for the first time and for real this time.

To tell the truth I really forgotten how to really cry and I really feel that this very heart of mine is a heart of "rock" rather then a "flesh" but today, this changed I believe.
Today's youth service was totally different, we had a combined CG prayer service. When I stepped in today, there were to crosses in the hall. So, I thought it seems that today there're be some different programs.
As the service started it was as usual singing then we had prayer and singing again.
Then we had more prayer session, 1 part where many knelt before the cross and lay down their problem, troubles and so on. I went out too.
I prayed, but nothing happened. To tell you, I've seek the touch of God for long enough, but many times, there was my heart, harden as hard as stone. Then so, nothing came even I was praying as hard as I can.
After that, pastor told everyone there, write in the piece of paper that was given before that anything you want to tell God- every prayer, troubles, request and so on.
I wrote a whole piece of paper long but too I felt nothing much even though I written it with all my heart.
Then we continue singing praises.
After a while, we were told to gather in our respective CG and pray.
Everyone was seated down, given a candle and we are to lit it. Then we held hands in a circle and prayed.
After the prayer, I looked at the candle, I say to myself, "I just want to be a light in darkness like this candle here in front me, God"
Then my friend beside just suddenly lay her hands on me and prayed.
As she prayed, I just meditate on the words while looking at the candle.
Then tears just started rolling down and I just felt the peace.
Here my prayer was answered, for it was already some time that I prayed that I want to have a personal encounter with God.
I'm just really glad and thankful.
My prayer is finally answered, finally ^^
Thank you God.
We continue praying for our nation.
Then all went on till around 1.20pm.

After that went down and went to the books and tape counter before going hope and I saw Hillsong's newest live album ^^

Bought it and here it is Hillsong live latest album - Faith+Hope+Love

Friendship of respect and sacrifice

Friendship, a stable 1 is not easily achieved.
Friendship once broken, is hard to regain.
Some just don't understand friendship...
Some don't understand it well enough...
For me I have the basics but not the advance.
But this is what my heart feels and what I want to write.

Ain't friends:
There to encourage and not discourage?
There to defend and not insult?
There to make their friends happier?
There to comfort when there's sadness?
There to share and listen?
The ones we go to when we have troubles?

Shouldn't friends be respectful to each other and not disrespecting their views? Their religion? Their believes?
Shouldn't friends accept each other?
Don't just think about yourself think about other's feeling... you may be having fun saying this and that but the other party may feel insulted.
Its not about open minded, its not about freedom of speech here, but its about friendship, respect and trust.
Sometimes I just don't understand friends who say really unappreciated things.
Are they saying it for fun? To win the argument? Or they just don't realize what they're saying are insulting?
I sometimes just want to shout to some friends who ask unanswerable questions by saying:" Do you really want to know? Or are you asking this so that you can win this conversation/argument?"
Think for yourselves.

Don't make your friends what you want them to be.
They are living their lives, so are you, and each individually.
No human has the right and authority to make a someone live a life as they see fit, what more a friend.
No matter smart, rich or powerful, there is still no authority.
If you see what they do is not right then tell them, and tell them in a way that a friend would do.

Now please appreciate and respect friends.
Don't live in a fantasy world as though you control the characters in it.

I feel that some of the close friends that I know are not the friends I really know; and sometimes the friends that I don't really know/not close with are the friends which you really need in times of trouble.
The closest friendship is forged not in time, but by the sacrifices we make.

Talking about death

Death, a rare topic, a topic seldom discuss but yet a topic we quite often face, something very real and something that happens suddenly.
Death comes expectedly, silently and is not know.
Quite a lot of death I heard have been happening... whats happening I wonder.
Why so many? Why so sudden?
I feel its time to really appreciate people around and when they're still around.
Just really don't want to lose them suddenly and not having the chance to be with them anymore. We may never predict death, only God knows.
As I've said before in previous post,one can be here today and not tomorrow, its real and its that sudden.
Its really time to start appreciating people when they're still around for death has no warning.
Even more questioning is what if they do not know Christ? Where will they go if they're dead.
Christians yes, we have eternal life but then what of those who do not know about the Truth?
I believe its time to share the Gospel too before its too late.

As I write this, I just wonder if my time is near? If i'll be called home soon?
My job on earth is not done, how then?
I'm thinking too much maybe...
I'm writing this to tell myself and wake myself up.
I need to wake up and start appreciating my family, my friends, and those around me.
I pray pray God wake me up.

The call to "rise up"

I guess I'll be only updating once or twice a week from now on due to laziness and business :p
Last week well nothing much except the monthly test given by our school... I wonder hows my result.
Friday BK class was a little different. Started with a prayer session. Then when one of my friend prayed and mention the word "rise up", I just somehow felt God's touch.
Its repeating in my mind..."rise up, rise up, rise up"
At night went to Agrotech garden in Hulu Langat for dinner with cell group members. Great environment and food ^^

Saturday went for PC fair despite of the new there will be a protest going on in KL area. Went around 12 and reach around 1.30 and walked for about 3 hours.
Then when going back, heard Majlis Jamik station was closed until 6 so had to take the train till pasar seni and walk all the way to Plaza Rakyat LRT station, was damn tiring in a hot and hazy day... reach Jusco Maluri around 5, eat "tea-lunch" then went back home around 6pm.

Today, Sunday woke up 10.30... almost late for church, thank God didn't late, He woke me up in time.
Great service today. Today service was just fitting cause today's preaching really answered some of my questions.
Then again the word "rise up" appeared but I just wonder how?
Tell me O God...
Went home after church.
Around 5 went out again to somewhere in the area before Hulu Langat for dinner and to celebrate my brother's 11 birthday.
Suppose to be 3rd but celebrate 1 day earlier. Happy Birthday Darren.
Environment was ok but food not so...
Went home around 7.30.

A sudden question:
What if I'm not here tomorrow? What would happen?

So thats basically the update for the whole week and for this post.
~God bless~

Simple

As simple as it goes but yet meaningful :D

Backgroud pic

New background start commenting :D

What is? Which is? Is it?

Many questions have troubled me for some time, especially the 5 main ones- what, which, when, who, how.
Its like questions that keep repeating in my mind time and time again not every time but in times that are quiet and alone.
Questions like these just appear in my mind.
Question like:
What is my gift?
What am I good at?
Which is my gift?
Which instrument should I try playing to see if I can play them?
When is my turn?
When will I change?
When will things be shown to me?
Who is my future...?
How am I going to live this life?
How should I serve God?
and the list goes on and on again...
I just pray these questions will be answered as time passes.
When is the right time I wonder...

Anyways its been a week since I came back from camp.
So its been a tiring week for last week due to lack of sleep.
Glad to have a good rest during the weekends.
Missed the Bon Odori trip to Shah Alam due to some laziness :p
Sunday as usual there was youth force.
The presence of God was there during worship :)
Then CG discussion about 1 Timothy 4.
Basically its about Christian life...
Missed the first lesson before that
So some parts are quite blur...

So basically thats the updates for today.
God bless :)

Since I was back

I haven't blog since I was back from camp on Sunday.
Well camp was nice... lots of different experience and the best was the solo night tracking ^^
Basically everyone was let in alone but came out in groups :D and the facilitators asked and the answer was "we met inside" or "kita tersempak" :p
In all it was quite a camp with some say lots of emotions and really a tough camp...
The camp lasted 3 days 2 night short yet I'm glad to be back.
Awww I missed church sad...
Although the camp was nice, its really really tiring.

Then updating about games :D
Yeah lots of really great games coming down throughout this year and next year.
Games like Modern Warfare 2, Battlefield 1943, Starcraft 2, CnC 4, Crysis 2 and more...
Its really all long awaited games for all gamers. ^^
Hurry let SPM fast and just pray I would study T.T

Thats all the updating for today.

In my absence

Will be going for camp tomorrow till Sunday, a 3 days 2 night camp... so won't be in then.
Will be missing church T.T
Gonna be missing everyone...
Will be missing rest...
will be missing the weekends...
missing BK class
missing online...
missing gaming...
Gonna miss so many things.

Well I just feel like not going but then its paid so no choice...
So pray for journey mercy :)

Well

I was sick last week... so didn't go to school for 2 days.
So I a so called 4 days weekend haha.
Well rested 4 days... really rest a lot especially the first 2 days.
Really slept like mad haha.
Well, got well on Saturday and fully well on Sunday.

Then last Sunday was church's Youth Emphasis Sunday and we had a really great speaker.
Its really awesome how God use her to preach.
It was really nice and funny in certain ways.
But everything said was very true in one way or another.
Some really impacted me.

Time really passes too fast... Wednesday tomorrow.
Argggg I wanna go to church this Sunday... but then won't be making it cause will be having camp T.T
Well... haiz no choice then...

Then, Hillsong is coming out with their live album soon and I so wanna get it. ^^

Well, this wraps up what I want to update today.

Should I? Should I not?

I just don't know, and I'm again confused, thrown back into time where I first experience this.
Sometimes, I just keep wondering... will we be together... 5 years ago I've faced this, and now once again I've been thrown into this situation, the situation between to say or not to say, to express or not to express, to take up courage and tell or just stay like this and don't say a word.
Which is it?
There are two choices all with its own condition.
If I tell, I might get, but yet I may risk losing the friendship. If I don't, I'll regret and will always wonder, but yet the friendship would remain, I just don't want to look back one day telling myself "You should have asked last time, look its all too late now" So which is it?
All I want to so ask is ".. / .... .- ...- . / - .... .. ... / ..-. . . .-.. .. -. --. / .- -... --- ..- - / -.-- --- ..- / .- -. -.. / .. / -.-. .- -. .----. - / .... . .-.. .--. / .. - / -... ..- - / --- -. .-.. -.-- / - --- / .- ... -.- / .-- --- ..- .-.. -.. / -.-- --- ..- / --. .. ...- . / -- . / .- / -.-. .... .- -. -.-. . / - --- / -... . / .-- .. - .... / -.-- --- ..-"

What more can I ask...
Sometimes I just wonder what is God's planning...
I just pray He'll show me something.

All is in the plans

Today was the English debate competition and guess who we're against? SAB yes, Amminudin Baki, last years 2nd.
Our topic was "Outside learning is the best way to captivate the interest of students"
We took the role as government which we prepared all our notes on and I really thank God.
Well, everything went on normal until minutes after I sat down in front on the table where I started to get nervous...
That very moment I was praying so hard that God would give me the peace... but then peace was not there. Anyways I finishes 8 minutes for the debate as the first speaker and seriously I really sucked at it... At that time all I was thinking is "We're finished" all because of me...
But then the debate went on for around an hour or so... with our second speaker being the best but the other team still seems to be winning side.
So it was as though the debate was 3 against 1.
All I was thinking is all is lost...
We were at the point of hopelessness to win. Our third speaker too was not that good.
When the debate finally ended, we could see that the opposition were already shaking hands so confident that victory was in their hands while the judges went out to decide the winning team as the rest of us stayed in the room. That time the first thing I do was pray. I prayed something like "God let your will be done, let your glory be shown, let a miracle happen here, for you're God without limitations, and God I prayed that you will give us victory, Amen"

Then after like around 10 minutes or so, we were mixing around with the opposition when the judges finally came in.
The she gave a short comment on the debate saying she don't like this debate for so so reason.
Then the moment was there when the chairperson opened the result and straight away he looked at the opposition. I thought well, we had our try when he said the winning team is the GOVERNMENT. That time I was... not even sure that am I on the government or opposition when then I realized that jaw dropping result. I was like stunned forgetting about everything. I was so shocked that I could not believe what I heard.
This is the first time, our school went in from the first round of debate since when I joined Saint Gabriel and there was history, made by God.
All I really want to say is all Glory to God, and I was really touched and all I remembered was the quote from the movie I watched- Facing the Giants which goes something like -"God will give us victory all because He can" Yes all because He can, we had our victory all because He can.
I never want to forget this moment never in my life.

School reopen day+3

School started for the second term for already 3 days...
Its a bit tiring returning back to school life after 2 weeks of holidays.
There is still the holiday mood lingering around.

This Friday will be going for a 2 days 1 night prefect camp.
Well, some part of me just don't feel like going.
But well, the choices are not there and not mine.
Will be back on Saturday around 4 or 5+

Well, thats all for this update.

Mmorpg frenzy

I'm back into mmorpgs again. Why? Cause of a new game called Dragonica.
Its a great game and I really really recommend it to anyone who likes Maple. If you like Maple you'll probably like Dragonica. For me, I don't quite like Maple but I liked Dragonica haha.
Its open beta now so everyone has almost a standard level.
Well, I'm playing on server Kaye which is on the 1st server slot. So anyone planning to play join me on server Kaye ^^

Heres some pictures taken:

Well, hope any mmo players seeing this will plan to play :p
Another pic:

My 1104 combo chain ^^
The official site for Dragonica is http://dragonica.iahgames.com/
Do take a visit

The end is near

Well, not the end of the world but the end of the mid term school holidays is near. Another few more days and school starts again.
Just can't imagine how fast time goes by... 2 weeks of school holiday seems to pass in just a few snaps of the finger.
Will probably start getting exam results too... wonder how "well" I did...

Spent the whole holiday gaming haha, what better can I do except gaming?
Maybe its the only thing I'm good at for now, haven't found others things which I'm good at yet...
time will tell I guess.

Just a short and brief update.
What more can I say?

A glimpse into rejection

Rejection a common part in my life, I would say my rate of being rejected by people around me would be around the rate of 7-8 out of the scale of 10.
Sometimes its not that I don't speak much or I'm the "quiet" kind.
Its throughout life, I've lost my courage and my self-confident to communicate, I can't seem to find it in my life anymore.
Its like I want to speak yet my mouth would not open and words would not come out.
I lost the ability to communicate like any normal person would.
I've lost my trust in peoples around me, in friends even the closest.
Yes, I don't need to feel, cause I know. "rare, cold, weird and unsociable type" which makes me the no.1 target to be rejected in many times, in life, in studies, in friendship.
Sometimes it just pains me to the core, yet I'll never express it.
What can I say? What can I do? Its my weakness...
Another would say the "slowness" in my reactions and sensitivity, call me "retarded" if in straight forward style.
Another reason, another heart stabbing reason, a reason for most people, sometimes even the closest people around me uses this as an advantage to tease, to play prank, to trick, to ignore, to insult....
Words thrown at me, not to encourage but to break my dreams, my confidence...
All kinds of words of discouragement I've face...
All I've face many times, gone through again and again until its so common its like wind brushing but yet it too sometimes leave effects in my heart.
Sometimes I think why? Why was I given a life like this? What God's purpose.
The pain, the loneliness, its just unbearable...
Its like a heart is being blocked and I'm losing my breath.
I can certainly say all these cause I know well enough.
I ask if and only if anyone is reading this post, what kind of person do you think am I? Give me an answer, a true answer, an answer from within.
How I wish I can let go of this pain, but yet tears are not rolling down my eyes.
How I wish...
17 years... 2 years in kindergarden, 6 years in prime and now 5 years in secondary, all I've faced rejection...


In life even sometimes the closest rejects me, all, everyone, except God. God is and will always be the only one that will never reject me, this is the only thing left in me that I believe with faith and I thank God for this.
I can surely say its because of God, I am still living on, if not I would not want to be here. I am going through life because I trust in His plans and I felt His unfailing love.
How I pray a strike of miracle would happen...
A miracle that would transform my life...
Just one...
Just this one miracle would be enough...

Here starts the holidays

Its the first week of my holiday, and my school is having extra classes and I'm having tuition almost everyday...
Its just I'm in a holiday mood and not in a mood for so many programs related to "studies"
Well, thank God school is just for 1 week.

And yeah I received my Hillsong United: Tear Down the Walls album last week.
The musics are awesome, some really touched the heart.
Its by God such great musics are made ^^

Then I decided to dig out my pass year essay and I rewritten it in "word" format for my school's magazine and so I decided to post it here too ^^
Note: Its modified from the original 1 hour exam copy, and all character names are fictional and are not related to anyone in anyway or anyhow.
Story is inspired by the today's situation of the world, and some games and movies.

I hope its nice ^^

A Remnant of My Memories(Edited from my Form 4 last term exam)

The year is 2018; the biggest economy crisis hit the whole world in a flash. Stock markets were closed and money was simply worthless as paper. With crude oil prices rising to 800 USD per barrel, the U.S and Europe waged war across all the other continents and sparked World War 3. With an all out nuclear warfare at its horizon, Asian countries united to build the last remaining hope against the invading western onslaught.

The whole world was affected by the war, poverty and diseases everywhere. This includes Malaysia. Kuala Lumpur, the capital city of Malaysia, a once great city where the Twin Towers stood and known to the world is now just a remnant of its glorious pass, a pile of rubbles and debris with nothing, nothing left, a war torn wasteland.

Rumors have been spreading around the country about a safe haven where many refugees are going. The place was China and that is where I’m also going. I, like others, lost almost everything in the war, my love ones, my home, all that I had was gone and my life was the only thing that was preserved. I join others like me to find hope and a new home in China, rumored as the remaining last safe haven.

Our journey was via Thailand where trains are still in service heading to China. However, the only way from Malaysia to Thailand was by walking for all motor vehicles have ceased to work due to the insufficient fuel required for them to work. Its been a month since I’ve started my journey with others to Thailand and we are now close to the borders. This raised my hope after one month of walking with many incidents along the way.

Today is going to be final day of walking, because I’m now at the border toll, waiting for my turn to cross into Thailand. Suddenly, I heard gunshots from my back and everyone started panicking. Everyone started pushing each other to cross the borders. Then bombs and artillery shells started falling from the sky, bullets were raining everywhere. When I looked back, all that I saw was death and destruction, every time a bomb or shell exploded, death was sure to follow in its way.

Then during this desperate time, someone stumbled beside me, I helped her up and I was surprised to see a beautiful face just in front of me. However, she thanked me and continued on with the crowds. I lost sight of her in the crowds after that and I didn’t even get a chance to ask her name. As the sound of explosion and bullets got louder, I’ve forgotten about her as I struggle to cross the border. After a long struggle, I finally made my way across the border into Thailand but I kept running forward and I did not look back too see was going on but I know it was a massacre back there. I only heard screams, gunshots, bombs and shells exploding but it was enough to tell the whole incident behind me.

I continued to run until I heard nothing of those behind. Then I slowed my paced and continued walking with the crowds that survived towards the capital city of Thailand- Bangkok where the train station was. I walked the whole day and it was night when I reached the station with the crowds. The capital city- Bangkok itself was too in ruins like Kuala Lumpur when I had a glimpse of it before I enter the station. Then in the station, all that I see were thousands and thousands of refugees with the same fate waiting to board the train to China. From this situation, I know from what I saw that this is going to take some time before it is my turn to even have the chance to get on the train.

I surveyed the station and found a peaceful corner. I sat there like everyone else wondering about my fate and fell asleep. In the morning, I woke up and went to get some food supplied by U.N officers at the counter, it was packed. Then that very moment, I saw that face once again, I saw her. Just as I saw her, she too saw me; it was just as though we were fated to meet each other. I went over and introduced myself to her and it was then I knew her name. Her name was Sue. We got along and talked a lot together while we sat there by the corner having out breakfast. As we chat along, I thought to myself, it is weird that even in the worst of times, happiness can be found.

Well got along well after a few days, then one night, I decided to bring her out for something like a date. I bought her the open space just outside the station and we sat in the middle looking and pondering at the night sky. It was the happiest day in my life since the years. It is because of her, I looked at this world torn world in a different perspective.

The next morning, we heard there was a train coming and so we decided it was time for us to try to get on the train that day. I hold her hands and attempted to push through the crowds and to the platform. We waited there and a few hours later, the train finally came. Everyone was pushing towards the door when the train rushed into the station. We tried to push our way onto the train but then we got separated during the attempt. I manage to get on the train but she was left behind. I tried to open the door, but she said that it was ok and she would take the next train. I agreed to meet her and the station in China. Then as the train rushed out of the station, a light flashed through the sky and suddenly the was a great flashed of light that blinded my sight the very moment just as train left the city outskirts. At this sight, I fell down on my knees knowing that that was the last time I ever get to see her face. She died with the thousands of civilians that were left behind that very day. She and the times we had together will always remain in my memories.



End of story xD, comments are openly accepted
I feel when I write this story, I feel like the guy being left alone to live, rejected and alone.

Final week before mid term holidays

Yup as the title states... its the final week before mid term school holidays starts.
And well, I haven't been blogging very often... cause I feel that I lost the inspiration to blog.
Diagnostic exams are coming to an end finally after 3 weeks.
Tomorrow last paper EST.
The closest event after that is teacher's day on Friday.
I just happy the holidays are finally here just in time to relieve stress and sometime to sit down and give a long thought about life...
I can't believe its now May and almost June already, time passed very fast...

I just don't know why but these few days there is an "jolt" of feelings, a blend of feeling the emo kind, just don't know why.
It makes think about life... studies... purpose... future-family, job, where, how... where am I heading... God... my ability, my gift, my friendship with others... my ways of life... my way of interaction with others.... I just don't know but I keep like thinking about all these things... a bit emo emo like that feeling...
Just what might be causing these feeling... stress? Just don't know why...
Just pray that God will take this feeling away.

Then there is the feeling "yeah!"
Why? Cause I pre-ordered Hillsong United's newest album- Tear Down The Walls



Haha I guess it would be sent to my house anytime starting from tomorrow xD
United: Tear Down the Walls was release in Australia on the 9th of May, and is released globally today that is the 26th of May.
Well, church might start selling them this Sunday.
Its Rm32.90, so if anyone from planning to buy, bring money. I preordered for around Rm27+ and total at Rm30+ for delivery that was around Rm 2+



This is one of the nice songs I heard, enjoy.
And I guess that all I'm going to blog today.
God bless.

Week 2/3

Entered exam week 2/3, finish this week there is another few more days next week.
Times are getting filled to the max... and I feel 24 hours is just not enough...
And I just can't get myself to sleep early... makes me feel tired in school.
I guess I'm addicted to sleeping late? haha

Been having flu and cough for a few days... I pray its nothing serious.
Its better today however.
Thank God.

Here are the exams.... again

Here are the exams again and this time its the diagnostic test. Its going to last for about a month as long as it goes. Its so long, I hope for it to pass in a flash...
Had my English test today and my BM test the day before... I wonder how its going to turn out.
I pray it turns out well. I did minimal study for both my English and BM though...

It seems I feel a little useless in life, living with a purpose but not able to fulfill it.
I just pray life gets a change from God.

Blink

This week seems to past very fast, don't know why. Maybe its because of the so many activities for the pass 3 days...
Tomorrow Thursday already...
Today went to some "anugerah cemelang"... not as receivers but as "observers"
Teacher say go to observe so can so call inspire us to do better in our SPM.
I don't suppose its possible cause we were all there like sitting there doing nothing, almost bored to death kind of program...
But well, rather go then stay in school. Lazy XD
Well, short update for today.
It seems some of exam results are "acceptable", Thank God

Life in a summary

How should I write this? haha Well, I'll just start simple.

Born on April the 3th 1992 to a Christian family, given the name Darrell Lau Yeow Kang.
Was a privilege boy that got the chance to travel to many places outside of Malaysia like Hawaii, however was a mischievous boy and loves crying and causing trouble haha.
Was once told I cried on a bus and rolled on the floor xD.
Addicted to games even when I was small and did not want to go to kindergarten.
Was forced however, and that time I was around 4 or was it 5 haha forgotten.
Clumsy I was, and often felt down when I was running or riding bicycles.
Once felt down and so called "imprinted" my lips on the elevator O.o

Last year at kindergarten was the year 1998, on the year where my brother was born.
Then went to primary school in the year 1999, to a school called Chong Fah Phit Chee.
Was timid and cried on the first few days of school haha
Had some hard time communicating using Chinese cause I was not that good at it that time.
Had a hard time learning Chinese too. My English was good but my Chinese was on the other hand xD
Was quite bad a sports.
6 years there, met alot friends which some I have lost contact by now...
Felt what is to like someone in standard 6 o.o but well... lets not talk about it anymore.
Often fought with my brother, cause of some difference in character.
Had hard time from standard 4-6 in the morning classes where I was a slow one in doing homework therefore one stayed up till 4am to finish my homework @.@ was my record.
I worst injury was around these few year where I felt down and bang my head on the edge of the wall and got don't know how many stiches already...
Had my UPSR in the year 2004 and my last year in primary. After UPSR was so nice brought everything I can bring to play to school, like gameboys, scrabble and so on...
Well, my UPSR results were acceptable- 4As, 3Bs.
The last day was sad to leave school but yet was happy to go to a new environment.
However I still miss primary.

On the year 2005, entered secondary school named SMK Saint Gabriel, entered the top class.
Meet a few friends on the first day, then meet some friends that were into computer games too.
Those few particular are still now that I'm close with.
Then also known some other which always like to insult and so on on the first year itself.
Then there was form 2 and than form 3, the PMR year. Had a great year too.
My PMR results were also acceptable- 5As, 2Bs, 1D(chinese)
Was also candidated for prefect on the year 2007.
2008 was norminated as prefect, but well on watch, bad on studies. Did not pay much attention in class and quite often not doing my homework.
Was robbed once on the year 2008.
Then here I am in the year 2009 my last year, form 5, SPM year.


To add more to the above.
Well, throughout my 17 years of life, I've been travelling with my parents to alot of places around the globe, I feel that its a privilege.

To talk about my Christian life now.
From small I followed my parents to church in PJ.
Then around my primary years, when my parents did not attend church, I went to a church near my house for a few years for youth service.
Then there was a internal problem in the church and therefore I too did not attend anymore.
Until sometime where my mum suddently, say we should again attend chruch.
Then that was when I started attending Charis.
I had stomach pain on the first day...
Well, my first few years there was just like some people would say, a Sunday Christian.
I was not close with my CG members that time, I seldom speak or communicate.
I was baptise on the 21st of December 2008.
I guess this marks the turning point of my life.
Things started changing dramatically on 2008's youth camp.
My life was touched.


So, I thank God for these 17 years of life till this very moment.
Keeping me safe all along.
Changing my life.
So this the my life in a summary.

Not inspire anymore? T.T

Ok, first of all, exams are over for now... another one coming soon.
Guess its most of Form 5 life- exam exam exam...
I wonder how did I do this time... I pray its better.

Today church, was asked to share testimony.
Felt I gave it quite badly, probably because I was very nervous...
Then we talked about servant hooooooood
Josiah was the "man in charge"
Had a great time, not to mention with some guest from a children home in Thailand.

After that, went to Leisure Mall for lunch, wanted to get some games and Planetshakers' newest album- Deeper but too bad was out of stock somehow T.T
Anyways got 2 games.
One the way stop to drink so coconut juice.
Bought "beggar chicken" for dinner.
After going back installed one of the games and played the whole game.
Then when I wanted to install the second one notice... two disk 3.... crappp
Haiz have to change...

Then dinner eat the chicken bought from afternoon.
Then gaming.
After gaming here I am blogging.

Well, I know I've been updating my blog less often now.
I feel less inspire nowadays and lazy... probably because of the many things around me...
I think I'll update once a week unless I have something special to post.

Anyways thank God for His protection and guidance throughout the week.
Not to mention for the wonderful rest on Saturday.
Well, that's all for today.

Thats all for this weekend

Yesterday, went to PESS school prefect gathering.
Not bad a lot people, the games were ok and the performance were nice.
So many school- Cochcrane, Cannault , Seri Mutiara and so on.
Lasted from 8.00-12.30pm had a great time.
The school itself was nice, very huge and the hall was "wow" nice and it looks like a church.

Today, went to church during first service because my parents were not in.
Probably because I did not get enough sleep throughout the week so I was quite sleepy there.
Then, it was youth service. Today song were wonderful, and all praises were to God.
Then it was the CG "invasion" time.
Had games then sharing, I felt sorta nervous when sharing because maybe I seldom share.
Anyways everyone had a great time.

Finally finished my Moral project ^^ Yeah!
Can pass up already :p
Not very nicely done but its acceptable.

Thank God for His guidance and protection though this 2 days in everywhere and everything.

Shine

Today rushing my moral project to complete it before the deadline... that is Thursday.
4 Essays to go and 1 volunteery work to go.
Basically did 3 essays today, well I actually did it already just correcting somethings and rewriting it tidily.
While Writing I listen to song.
Then there was this song that suddenly caught my attention- "shine"
Its the lyrics in one part on the song but the whole song is nice.
Its quite meaningful too.
Here goes:

Shine by Matt Redman
Lord we have seen the rising sun, awakening the early dawn,
And we're rising up to give you praise.
Lord we have seen the stars and moon, see how they shine,
They shine for you,
And You're calling us to do the same.
So we rise up with a song, and we rise up with a cry
And we're giving you our lives.

Chorus
We will shine like stars in the universe,
Holding out Your truth in the darkest place.
We'll be living for Your glory,
Jesus we'll be living for Your glory.

We will burn so bright with Your praise O God,
And declare Your light to this broken world.
We'll be living for Your glory,
Jesus we'll be living for Your glory.

Like the sun so radiantly
Sending light for all to see,
Let your holy church arise
Exploding into life,
Like a supernova's light,
Set your holy church on fire;
We will shine.


Here's the song

Razer cutting? xD

Today, PC fair was held in KLCC and so few of my classmates and I decided to go to KLCC together.
We decided to go today cause weekends not free, however I misses BK class T.T
Well, we had our lunch at KFC Jusco Maluri and went over the other side to wait for the bus and it started raining... heavily.
Guess how long we waited? An hour...
An hour wasted just for waiting for bus then we were on our way to KLCC. I just don't know why was it so jam up on the roads.
We reach there around 4.00pm.
We headed out straight to the convention center.
Walk so far then when wanna take the main entrance some problematic staff stopped us say we must go through the gate they pointed which I don't know why, then it was then we found out we wasted walking round the whole fair to get back to the main entrance... another times wasting situation.
But anyways we did find our way through. Then I got my first touch of the Iphone was nice.
Then we slowly got our way down back to hall 1.
I headed for the "razer" booth with my friends.
Took quite sometime there just for me to choose a keyboard and mouse and I got it finally for Rm310. Its a gaming keyboard and mouse.
Then we continue walk around the place for an hour+ buying somethings on the way.
Then we headed for the "Putra" station to catch our train back. It was packed all the way...
I finally reach home around 7.50.

Did not fix my accesories yet cause needed to get ready for church, there was a Good Friday service. It was nice, we had a singer, forget how to spell her name so don't want post better.
Anyways it ended around 10.45.
Reach home around 11 and started off with the things I bought.

And here are some pictures ^^

My razer gaming accessories ^^

Closer view of the keyboard ^^


And a closer view of the mouse ^^

Well, Good Friday, Thank God for dying on the cross 2000 years ago.
Thank God for keeping save throughout the day.

Birthday party and Sunday

Well, about my birthday party...
It was mega... there were so many peoples cause it was a 3 in 1 party...
My birthday, my cousin's and my mum's classmates gathering.
So imagine the number of people.
Well, there were lots of food and lots of food left...
Apparently there were many people but most of them ate quite less...
Well, my presents?

Here there are-


Gundam models and 3D puzzles ^^ simple yet appreciated.

And today in church was communion service.
Pastor talk about "passion week"
and I bought some new songs
Which are-


Hello Love (Chris Tomlin), God of This City(Passion) and Beautiful Savior(Planetshakers).
Used my birthday money buy de.
Around RM95+
Can't wait May, Hillsong's new album coming out ^^
Anyways that is all for today.
Thank God for giving me a great weekend :)

Awww... the age of 17

Yeap I 17 officially. Older 1 more year already.
Unnoticeable by myself, I've been alive for 17 years and I thank God for sustaining this life.
17 years of life. Many thing has pass, the happy and the sad.
But all for the purpose of shaping me.
Still can't believe time goes by this fast.
You can say pmr seems like 1 month ago?
haha.

So, my birthday, celebrated my on the actual day that is today with my family.
Black Forest cake, my favorite.
Tomorrow, will be celebrating with a larger scale.
Combining with my cousin.
So its going to be big... ^^

Throughtout the weekends

Well, its been quite sometimes since I last blogged. Felt lazy lol.
So the weekends.
Saturday, school- Hari Anugerah Cermerlang. So have to go to school, 8.00 - 10.30 like that.
At night, "voted earth" by turning of the lights, computer, television... except the fan xD, too hot cannot tahan.

Sunday, church went for morning service cause no youth and we're using the youth hall for practice. Practicing for 19th April's form 1 CG "invasion".
Well, the music team did great, had a fun time, I'm in charge of the Power Point system, so did lots of typing.
Well, in summary we had a fun time and fun practice.

Well, its already 31 of March, tomorrow April ^^ April fool -.-"

Thank God for the wonderful weekend,
And for the wonderful yet busy month.

Losing...

Losing is not the end of everything but if looked in the right view, is the beginning of something new.
Its not always bad, there are opportunity from losing.
By losing we might be making a new way for us through life.
Where there is victory there is losing.
No one will win forever, but no one too will lose forever.
There is always once we will lose, it is not we "might", but its we "will". Losing is a process we must face in life.
Through life there is always ups and downs, same goes for process of winning and losing.
In losing, too there is victory. In losing, we too achieve different results.
Everything that happens has a purpose, and has benefits and negatives.
So in today's lost, I believe this lost will mark a new way.

Tomorrow is the day...

Tomorrow will be the day of the marching competition.
We didn't train much but I believe there is a chance.
We can win, so I pray God guide us through and claim victory.
Pray for me as I follow my team into "battle" tomorrow.

A choice is ahead

School restarts tomorrow...
Here comes a wave of stressful feelings...

After some thoughts I think I might resign as my school scout president.
I feel, I'm incapable of taking the stress coming from it anymore and I'm incapable to lead
with strictness.
However its not my final decision yet.
I want God to decide.
I want His will be done.
If its for me to resign He will allow, but its the opposite, I pray He gives me the strength to continue.
So God help me.... help me...