Letter to God 1

"Oh Lord, must I continue my life this way? Who can understand me well enough but you? You know my heart, you know my struggle, you know my cry deep within me that no one else does. I know my ways are wrong yet many a times, I take your grace and mercy for granted. Forgive me. Help me of my laziness, help me of my weakness, help me of more habits, help me of my life... and make me someone that glorifies you. Amen."

Reasons

There are times you ask me why I don't like it when you ask other people or go out with someone to get something...
Well, the reason for that is maybe I just don't wanna feel inferior or just helpless.
The feeling of unable to do anything for you is like i'm incapable to be the best for you...
I just wanna be that someone that can be there for you, to help you in every way that I could...
I just want the every opportunity to help you... to let you remember me... to have the chance to show that i care...

The reason I was mad or upset when you said you'll ask someone else to help yesterday is because I wanted to help... I just don't want someone to take away my opportunity to be there for you...
Maybe my ways are just wrong... maybe sometimes... all I want is to show you that I love you... but then i guess sometimes my priorities are just wrong... I'm truly sorry.