Am I ok to let it go?

Loving someone without that someone noticing is makes oneself really suffers. Especially if that someone is always by your side but you just don't have the courage to tell that someone about your feeling towards them for the fear of losing even the last thing between both of you-friendship.

Honestly I don't even know if its love or what? I mean, four years!? How can oneself take four years... of suffering just for a single person that goes by you everyday but you just don't have the courage to tell the them what you feel and separating oneself from others that you meet. Its just like chopping down the whole forest just for the sake of "one" tree.

I can say I'm that person. Its been four years, yet I never let go of her in my mind. Every time I see her, I just can't let go of her but yet I have no courage to tell her anything, my mouth just kept shut. When other girls attract my attention from my eyes, my heart can just can't let go that one particular girl because she will always be in my heart. This heart has only one space for this part of life.
The experience and feeling with her never faded. How I wish she was with me right now and in future. How I wish she was in my life.

I don't know. Maybe in future yes and maybe not. From what I wrote, I don't know how to let go of her. How I wish I show her this post. But will not review her name for the sake of keeping the friendship with her. Its my only last thing between me and her and I don't want to lose it. If telling her my feelings towards her will cost me my friendship I'll rather keep it to myself forever even though I will have a scar in my heart in this portion of my life. But I'll always hope of one day where I'll have this chance to tell her everything but yet retaining the friendship even if she rejects me.


...God help me...
Only God can help me.

Please don't make wild guesses of who this person is... and post them on anywhere, even though if you are so certain.

The feeling of less stress

Exam is finally over. Don't want to know the results lol.
Well but I feel relaxing, less stress.

Well for those of my friends that just started exam- Good Luck.

New background

Give comments about my new background.

Friendship

Friendship is build on many foundation and its never easy to build a stable friendship.
So, treasure every friends beside you.
When friendship is lost, we can never buy back the true friendship with money.
Keep the friendship, maintain it and don't ever lose it.
Once it is gone we may never get a chance for that true friendship again.
Trust is the pillar, the foundation is a true friendship.
Lose your trust, you lose your friendship.
We may regain friendship but the trust in it may never be gained.
Don't ever lose the trust.
Be careful in your action and choices for there will be consequences in every move we make.

My 40 days

I have finish my 40 days on my Purpose Driven Life book.
After 40 day without missing a day I give all glory to God for He has bless me through this 40 days
and all the thinks He blessed me with. I've learned many things. I thank Him very much for all He has implanted in my life.

My next book I'm aiming to read is "God's Power To Change Your Life". Well I'm planning to get it ASAP.

Out of quietness I thought of this

I treasure every single person I've met in my life,
I treasure the moments and times together,
I treasure your company,
I treasure your trust,
I treasure your help,
I treasure your gifts,
I treasure what you share,
I treasure many things more,
But...
I want to treasure the opportunity given to me so that I can share the Words of Truth with all of you. I want this opportunity again.
I want you to live eternally.

The final

The final exam of the year is coming soon, very soon.
Hope I can get good results.
Pray for me to get good results.
Pray that God will help me to focus on studies.